i feel like every step i have taken to get used to this place has only lead me to take 2 steps back, whether it is getting my students to come up to me and say something other than: you are cute, or my Japanese conversation, or getting along with my JTEs/ other JETs. there is so much to experience and learn here that i don't think one year is enough.

on a less gloomy note, the other male JET backed out of being Santa Clause for the kindergarten in our town, so take a wild guess at who had to take his place, or just answer, what do you think I'm wearing as I'm writing this in the kindergarten?? Wait, that's also pretty depressing. Um. The kids are adorable here. I will post some pictures of them soon.  my parents are coming next week

i wish i was a kid again...(-_-)

i'm so ready to start making an imaginary friend to talk to. it will be a male, i think. the male counterpart of myself. i think i might start getting really attached to myself. "so chris, what are you up to tonight?" "oh, i'm going to enjoy a quiet night in with Me, just exchanging thoughts over wine." (O.O")